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The unbreakable bond

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Sibling love. Shae and Oliver’s interaction hasn’t yet evolved to playing together but already, I see glimpses of Shae in his big brother role – like when a friend is holding Oliver and he gets quite concerned and tries to pull him away and back to my arms. Oliver watches his brother with wide eyes (often ready to wince as he anticipates being sat on no doubt). I think back to my own childhood and my siblings, especially my older sister. I was in awe of her as a child. She had beautiful soft, silky hair, eyes as bright and blue as the sky and full lips that curved up at the corners, ready to smile. She was quite creative and skilled and I strove to make my rag doll as beautiful as hers (it didn’t matter that she had six years on me, I was determined to produce something similar).

She knew me better than anyone. She was the shoulder I cried on when my first boyfriend broke up with me, she was the one with whom I could be silly, mad and however many other crazy emotions us girls feel. And I knew her better than anyone. I knew when she was pretending to be serious before I even saw a smile tugging on the corners of her lips. I knew when she was acting happy but was actually feeling anything but. We used to laugh when I would call her on her bluffs because she fooled others but not me.

It has been six years since I last saw her. There is so much I want to say to her that it is hard to determine where to start. I could tell her that everything that happened, that drew a wedge between us, it does not change anything for me because the bond we have is too strong. Some siblings don’t relate much to each other and once adults, they go their separate ways and reunite for holidays. But I was blessed to have a best friend in my sister. We used to compare ourselves to the Haine’s sisters’ in the movie White Christmas (“Sisters, Sisters, there were never such devoted sisters…”) How I wish things had been different and that we could have been there for each other during our times of joy and sadness. I wish I could have been everything she needed me to be before the chasm.

What I would say to my sister if she were reading this…I love you so so much. I miss you in my life and I don’t have any grievances whatsoever and I am sorry for the ones I caused you.

I would tell her that I am proud of her because I know that she is a devoted mother, a beautiful and gentle soul (she would likely argue this point but that is because she doesn’t see what I see) and a strong and intelligent woman. If there is something to be said for age, it makes you smarten up a little and loose some of your childish arrogance (and yes, I am talking about myself).

Oh my boys, I pray with all my heart that you will share a close bond and will take care of each other whether it be in the playground or after school at the pizza place. I pray that you build each other up and encourage those around you to act in love and kindness. I pray you have the best of times and that you will come through the worst of times closer than ever before.

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God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.

Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen.

–Reinhold Niebuhr

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Author: whenwewereyoung...

A stay at home mom of two boys under two, love TED talks, swing dancing and of course, writing. When we were young is my sharing of motherhood, the beautiful, the ugly, the happy, the sad and the world my boys are growing up in.

17 thoughts on “The unbreakable bond

  1. I really enjoyed your post. I am planning a series, and a book, on sibling relationships. This article perfectly goes along with that. It will be later this year, or early next year, before I publish it, as I have at least two other series first.
    My sister and I were very close growing up and still are. For many years she lived in Hawaii and I lived either in California, Utah, or Texas. It was really hard not getting to see her more often, but terribly expensive for either of us to make the trip. Now she lives in Colorado and I am in Texas so we get to see each other more often.
    I hope you and your sister are able to mend the rift. It is so very important to spend as much time as you can with your loved ones. We never know how much time we have here and we don’t want to waste a moment of it when it comes to our family. Good luck in mending that rift.

    • Thank you, Regina. I completely agree with you. I don’t want to loose any more precious years and hope that the day comes soon that we can again share our lives together.

  2. Beautiful post. I too, have a sister that I don’t really talk to anymore and who doesn’t really want me in her life. I can feel the heartbreak in your words, but hope that one day you will be able to mend whatever hurts took you apart.

  3. I’m so sorry for your hurt! My siblings and I all get along well together, but I have feuding family and that can be hard. I have an aunt I haven’t seen in almost 8yrs and 4 cousins I’ve never met. 😦 It sucks. I pray eventually you will be able to reunite with you sister and the past will be forgiven and forgotten.

  4. Sisters that truly love each other are never far apart. Time heals all wounds if you give time a chance.

  5. Oh I so hope this post is a step closer to reconnectng. The relationship I have with my brother is so special, strong and unique I can’t even imagine him not in my life.

  6. Wow, such a powerful post — brought tears to my eyes. I have two girls and can only pray they stay close. However, I know so many sisters who don’t get along and drift apart in adulthood. Beautiful writing.

  7. I hope that you and your sister have the opportunity to hug soon. I can see how much you love and miss her. It’s beautiful that you want your boys to have that same type of unbreakable bond. God bless.

  8. I too can see that bin in my girls and share the same prayer. I hope my older girl always is and fiercely protective and loving as she is now and I hope my little munchkin never looses that awe of her big sister. It is amazing to watch and I hope you can find it again with your own sister.

  9. I have two little girls, and I want nothing more than that they stay each other’s best friends for life. I hope your sister reads this and you’re able to come together again.

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